Contemporary Surreal Artist
Memories, Visions and Automatism
"Mesmerising" "Emotive" Beguiling"
As a female autobiographical artist who has suffered and witnessed suffering, I feel the psychological and physiological effects that art has. I understand its power. Beautiful truthfulness and painfulness. The peaceful, evocative, sensual, and sensations that are often not spoken of. I question Power and Control through the uncanny.
My works are presented as visual feelings and thoughts.
I am interested in how I have shielded myself from facing my past traumas and how I have 'lost' some memories. My practice is about recognizing my shadows' symptoms to begin to see what lies hidden and begin a process of healing. Reconnecting with childhood toys and toys that encourage me to make art, have informed and affected my art practice.
Perplexing questions of the beastly that co-exists with the beauty in humanity. The ever-present stench of injustice. The merry-go-round of power forces me to face my past and the choices I have subsequently made.
To detach me from my shadows and shed light on them, I enter the depths of my soul. In my dreams, night terrors and visions, I travel. Observing the World through an unnatural lens.
Reverting my mind back-in-time and having a dialogue with my inner-child, I search for the toys I played with, some I kept safe and others I dissected. The rhymes and the games, the lore of the playground become audio-worms, stuck in my mind. The games we played, in the bedroom, in the cemetery the morbid in the occult.
With vintage drawing tools, I conjure. With voices I record.
For me, the magic of playing is to be absorbed by an alternative world. I lost myself and grappled with my ever-changing identity. The telepathic insistencies and spiritual encounters beguiled me and offered me a way out. Regressing, repressing and the timely appearance of the apparitions, the night terrors and exploding head voices.
An intriguing sense of discovery meets the playfulness of the everyday.
I seek, I find, I discover and uncover. These hunted tools and sounds are brought back into my life, a sense of pleasing nostalgia with a quiet discontent. They offer loneliness, longing, satisfying escapism.
Abuse, violence and suppression - my art speaks out, for me, for sufferers gone whose stories may never be known, for those being subjected to trauma now and for those tormented soles to come.